People tell me I'm kindhearted and very beautiful but I don't believe them. I have a good degree from a competitive university but I often feel I must be the least intelligent in the room wherever I am. I feel that no man would love me. I was often physically abused, despite being a quiet and well-behaved child, and still am emotionally abused by my father. He often gaslights me. However, I also feel a great deal of love for him and feel sorry for all of the stresses he is under. This makes me feel bad and ungrateful about having negative feelings towards him. He is a good father who does love me and provided, despite some of his harmful behaviors. But I feel the years of daily bullying and aggression he's directed at me from a young age have eroded my sense of self-worth.

I don't know why but I love being called Soph, especially by people I'm close to. My full name obviously being Sophie.

So my sister and I go to this book club every week and I see a guy whom I don't know whether he likes me or not. He always talks to my sister,but never talks to me.i don't know whether he likes me or not. I don't know what I could of said or did to him. I try being nice to him.but I'm shy and sensitive. How do I not let it bother me

She is a girl a couple years older than me. She befriended me by laughing loudly at my lame joke out of then asked me to repeat it to her personally when she heard it. Then waited after class for me to giggle with her friend and she popped out and said boo got in my face and smiled. She began butting into my conversations to try to talk to me. She will ask questions respond to me have me repeat stuff to her or just laugh at unfunny things I say.When I talk to her and she gets my attention she waits after class to scare me. Her friend doesn't talk to me at all around her and asks me to do stuff like chase her around, tell her stories and jokes. One of time we were joking around she held good eye contact and said my name a lot I felt a vibe from it.Giggles and says my name when I am doing nothing.Smiles at me a lot.Cant say hi first to me when I say hi first she smiles and blushes.Walked by my class to smile and wave at me.Talking to me she gets red and can't look me in the eyes she smiles hiding her face.The one time her friend talked to me and asked me to sit with them and her friend sat next to me she seemed upset when shes happy around me.When they took turns with selfies next to me she asked me to get closer to her than I was with her friend. When she wore something showing boobs her friend came and got me for a pic and she blushed from that.She asks me to sit with her when I talk to her and take a pic with her and get close to her. Only approaches me with her friend.

I'm an a**hole all the time, super salty and spiteful. I'm just turning into a bad guy. I can't sleep at night, I get weird scary dreams when I do sleep, I freak out and have angry outbursts all the time, I get bored easily and will do anything to entertain myself even hurt other people physically and emotionally. I get sexually aggressive and view others as beneath me and as my property becouse I'm better then them. I don't have the same emotionl attached that I used to with people. My grandpa is about to die and I don't even care. I feel like I just have a burning hate inside of me for all humans and idk why. I wasn't always a bad person but in the last few years I've just been going down hill. How do I figure out what my problem is? Somethings definitely not right. I feel bad for the people around me.

I respect my boyfriend's intense faith. I myself am not faithless. I'm just not big on practicing my faith in a heavy way. My boyfriend knows this and insists he understands and respects it. He's a devote Bible reader, he's very faithful to his church, he will bring up Christianity to other people unsolicitedly , etc. While I keep to myself. We do pray together and I will accompany him to church sometimes. But that's more something I just do for him than myself. I drew the line at that though. He recently asked me to read the Bible with him. At first I genuinely thought I wanted to. I told him yes. But after I had some alone time to really think about it I realized this is not really something I feel like doing with him. When I told him this, at first he seemed ok. Saying he wouldn't push it. But he kept going. Saying "you should have told me no in the first place. Next time you don't want to do something just say so." Well, genuinely thought I did! Then he goes on a couple times "I hope you decide to read it." He wouldn't leave it alone. Even though he said he wouldn't push it. I finally had to put my foot down and tell him to let it go. I don't center my life around my belief in the extent he does. That's not likely going to change. He has said more than once he was fine with our differences, but his actions lately are saying otherwise. How do I get him to back off about this? I respect his way of practicing faith. All I expect is that same respect back.