*TRIGGER WARNING*?(In case) Lately, even-though he raped me years back, sometimes I wonder If I actually was raped. I don't feel anything when I see him. Nowadays I don't feel anything towards him, numb. I can talk to him and hang with him. Some days I think he's an okay guy and that I can move past everything and have a family relationship with him.Sometimes it doesn't bother me at all, that's why I wonder if it was really rape. A part of me is tired of simply caring about what he did to me. It's hard to see him as my rapist. Shouldn't it bother me more if it was really rape? It's not like he knew what he was doing since he was a young teenager(though he did get forceful when I wouldn't sit still). That's how I see it. It's not his fault. Maybe I'm just crazy. It was years ago. I wanted it to happen again. So maybe I can have more of a reason to cry when I want to. So maybe I could believe I was raped. It's not his fault since he was young and might not have understood what he was doing to me. I wonder if he even remembers it.I can't get the closure I want because it wasn't his fault. I still feel wronged. Maybe if he raped me again, then maybe he could take responsibility finally. I don't even know how far he raped me since my memories cut off when he's over me and trying to get inside. How do I know if I was raped?Is it wrong to assume I was, even if I can't remember all of it? Serious answers only, please. Should I try to make up with him and just try to get over it? Even when I want to move past it, it's difficult since I can't seem to let it go.

On sites like whitepages.com, spokeo and intelius, when I looked up my dad, under known or possible relatives it lists both ex wives, his two oldest kids and 3 other women has a kid with, so 7 total. Why would ex gf's whom he has a child with show up in there?

I've been with my boyfriend since Dec. We got back together after a 13 yr break and have 2 kids together.. here is the issue.. I was watching YouTube videos when I ssw his account so I clicked on it ..it showed he made a playlist called babes songs .. he had like 12 songs in there and it's not at all the kind I listen too or he listens to.. we listen to country and it was R&b.. I screen shoot it just in case he tried to delete it and deny it.. I knew he would claim it was an old list..which when I did confront him this is what he said( I never said I didn't make the list. But it was done along time ago, and was just recently transferred over. Don't even know how I linked the ****. But some how it got there. And I don't give a **** about it. You really are all I've got......) however that may have worked if he hadn't added a 2017 song that came out in Feb! So then he tried this one (My homeboy hooks my phone up to his tv, and we play music through the ******* tv. That may be how it got transferred to my ****. I don't know but I will ask him about it cause I don't deserve this ****). Baby like I said you are the only woman in my life i love you and there is no other ... Honestly, my entire body went cold when I saw the playlist.. I felt a fool..i also just bought him $250 work boots as an early fathers day gift .. he is going to try and twist this but I need advice in knowing that this would upset you as well!

My house is comparable to a television sitcom, You are sitting in your house, and random acquaintances comes in your home. The door is naturally opened, and random people would come in that you know without knocking or anything. They'll walk and you would turn around and greet them. Sometimes they'll walk in and help themselves. Is this normal?

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I am a strong actor and my method for acting is to be yourself and when I act in real life (social anxiety) I feel like I'm just acting in ways I would but enhanced, is this ok?

last monday I was staring into space & i was staring at the trash can & i see the girl i liked looking at me while she was walking over to throw something in the trash can. Then later I was staring at the wall & when i look over she was Leaning her Head Against her Hand While looking at me & smiling. Then on Wednesday i heard her saying " i don't know why he looks at me.

So I'm 18 in September so I'm not really developed all the way mentally or physically but I've been talking to a handful of women but it's like if I'm romantic and do stuff like write letters it'll be semi creepy if I'm honest and make myself vulnerable I'm a ***** if I joke around I'm a douche bag If i cook she'd probably be like hell nah it's probably going to taste nasty. I'm cute smart tall in good shape but I'm a mommas boy I take care of my mom. And last relationship I was with someone older and I was an overly emotional simp which ruined things I was too sweet. Sometimes I just feel like FML

I've been crushing on this girl and she initiated the convo and even suggested hanging out. I kept asking her out the day of and of course she couldn't. Was it rude that I kept asking her the day of? She was busy each time. She suggested other days but I love being spontaneous. Now I'm pissed of she won't go out

I m 24 at the moment working "part time" technically. Usually 32-35 hours a week, although sometimes I reach 40 a week depending on the busy season at my job , and I m hoping for a second job so I can begin to be stable to live on my own. Long story short I live with my mother who s 71 but old 71, my 11 year old niece who she s raising for my sister who s not in the picture at all. And my mother s son who s 54 or so. We ve moved about 6 times since I was 12. The older I ve gotten the more uncomfortable I am living with them, mainly because of their cleanliness which is awful, amongst other things with me not having a relationship or getting along with her son, and other things.

They take advantage of her feelings for him. I dont wanna go into detail explaining but basically the question is why do many men on dating sites say they want relationships on their profiles but in chats they sooner or later just start talking only about sex and asking for nudes and pictures of you looking sexy. Sexual pics are only for our husbands certainly not a random guy online

And he's 30 and never had a girlfriend. I then told him that beauty is not that important anyway ( the bible says beauty is vain when picking a wife ) and he said that it is very important. I dont really understand him; not that I have to. It just makes me wonder what he could have meant by all he said.