When I was little my older brother made me suck his penis, by threatening my life. I don't want to be one of those girls that cry wolf about rape. So I took to the internet to ask strangers. Thanks for your input.

That's how he acts. He has been a drinker/smoker his whole life. I swear it feels like I don't even have a dad most of the time. He doesn't open himself up with me. He just treats me like he owns me. I'm so fed up with it and I'm the oldest of 4 and I also have a younger brother who is a year younger than me. He's 21 and I'm 22 and I hate to talk about my dad with him because the truth is he has been abusive towards me and my brother. Mainly me but he has also been a piece of sh*t towards my brother too. I hate being around my dad because he is just so caught up in his ways and pretending like he's the victim. I have no pity for him because he's a liar. He continues to lie and make it seem like we're the bad ones when he's the one who abuses our love. He takes my love for granted and then tries to be little me every chance he gets. I swear I just want to rip him to shreds sometimes. I can't even live peacefully under his roof because I everytime I see him I have to be reminded what kind of person he is and that he will never open his heart to me. The other night I was eating alone in the dining room and my dad was on the couch watching tv and my sister came out of her room and he said I love you. It was directed towards my sister. He never says he loves me. EVER. Why do I have to deal with this guy ? Why me ? I have to be the one to tell my brother my dad is still a child. God help me.

I can never live a normal life all my school mates and family hates me I can't get a sentence in without them telling me to shut up.....I have already told them they are not allowed to be around my future kid and they still won't change I don't want anything to do with them after I grow up... I hate every single person in my family

I'm not talk about doing crime :)) or any mischief. And also not about routine to be done. Give me idea about something excited and/or useful stuff to do with them. I've had my own plan, like, cooking some simple dishes together, teach them some house work, go swimming or playing badminton every weekend, etc.

Every time she leaves to work, she says "Love you". I don't feel the same to say it anymore. My mom and I get in heated arguments of misunderstanding. Eventually things cool down but every time she pulls this "I love you" the next day. That means she feels bad about whatever happened, she's done this a few times. I do not sense that I want to say it back nor show her the attitude of "yeah, it's okay, no big deal, I love you too". Like its never okay the way she misunderstood me, saying things that a mom would never say to her 22 year old son. Here's the thing, She's Christian, I'm not, I strayed away from her bibles. We never start conversations now since April or May, I think. I never really talk to her about anything. The only time we ever talk is if I had a dream about my Father, If she's making food, when she leaves to work saying bye. I can tell my younger brother and sister have a better happy relationship with Mom. They have full on short conversations that sound happy. They have never physically hurt my mom, but I have and I didn't want to, I'm a gun sometimes and she is the hand that pulls the trigger on herself. Now I don't feel close to sister either. I'm only close to my brother now. Only my brother and I can have a cool conversation. I've gotten sick of my mom and sister nowadays.