I'm having a hard time picking bridesmaids for my wedding. I have my maid of honor and that's it. My friends from high school were not really good friends, so I don't talk to them anymore. Then when I got to college (I have one semester left) i made a bunch of friends, but then I was sexually assulted. I pushed people out of my lives, and then I left college for a year. I still held onto a few friends, but when I left college I stopped talking to them. When I left college, I moved away ti where my fiance is, but I have no friends here. My fiancé suggested to ask the people who were there for me after I was assulted, but I'm afraid I pushed then too far out of my life. And I don't want an assult define who I pick for my wedding. I have siblings, but they all at first showed distaste for me being him. They are okay now, but at one point they caused us to break up, and my family was emotionally abusive to me.

What's so great about Rachel leaving the firm???!!!

If not what happened? I keep worrying about so many different things with my wedding.

I had much worse weather than everyone was expecting on my big day and I feel really sad about it. As soon as we left the church it poured! I got hardly any photos of the wedding car and feel I just wasted money and wish I hadn't bothered and when we arrived our guests were all already drinking and we didn't get the big announcement we were hoping for as they were all understandably inside keeping dry. All the photos had to be taken inside and you can't see the real colour of my flowers or the bridesmaid dresses I spent so long searching for as there's no natural light. I feel so unhappy and can't help but think what a better day it would of been if it just hadn't rained!!!! I can't stop thinking about this and feel so unhappy! All that planning and effort washed away :(