I mean if you are an adult in the 30s and have been working for 10 years, what is feeling stuck really means?

Same sex and opposite sex. Is it insecurities, attraction, hate?

My home schools are ghetto. The drop out rate is high, all the students like to make bad decisions. They were redneck ghetto or black ghetto. My sisters are violent and aggressive and they are butched and if you just even look at them funny they would try to hurt you. To add insult to injury, my sister got into a bunch of thug women, particularly one that she is up her butt with. She got us acquainted with her and her thug family. Their family was all mafia like and burn down buildings crazy. When I was 14 one of those thug women (the one she usually hung out with knocked me down and threaten to kick my ***) over thinking I was flirting with her. MY SISTER in that day stood in for me. That thug woman is still mean and spiteful to me until this day. I try to avoid them, my parents are into that particular thug woman and do things with her and enjoy company with her thug family. I am 31 and I am oppressed by them thugs keep coming back into my life and I go into positions where I am by them and cannot get away from them. That one thug women is still spiteful with me and I am afraid I will have to call the police on her but not sure how that would work out since these thugs are burn down buildings crazy and their family is psychotic. Any suggestions?

I want to live in a fantasy world that I made up. How do I immerse myself in the world?

For some context, I've recently have been doing a lot of thinking about some past things that have come back to haunt me and bother me consciously deep down for years. Reading a few articles online still leaves me with the question of this possibly being a situation of innocent child exploration or some type of abuse/assault? Years ago when I was young, I ended up in a situation with a child of similar age to myself (only 2 years apart- I was older.) We had seen some graphic adult content on TV (I THINK is how this started?? I can barely remember??) and basically had this game of "ill show you mine if you show me yours." Now some articles regard this as normal child exploration (that of course needs to be stopped so we learn what is right and wrong, boundaries etc.) but I still feel immense responsibility for what happened considering I was the older kid in this situation (but still had no idea that this was a big and serious thing that was sexual.) We ended up seeing eachother's genitals and touching each other until the whole situation resulted in his genitals being put against mine. (not iN) just against. To this day it still bothers me because as I said, I was the older one who SHOULD have known better and this person was CLOSELY related to me. I don't really recall who started what, not that this makes it any better,but I still feel bothered by it to this day because I didn't know better or know what we were doing was wrong and was sexual, exactly.

She's 27 years old, and still acts this way. I don't even speak to her at all, I know this is a dumb question to ask and post.