'm 27. he's 35. We've been together since I was 19. He lives with his grandmother andd has 3 kids by two women. I have no kids and no desire to have kids. I always thought we were the perfect match because my bf doesn't want any MORE kids and I have no desire to get preganant EVER. who knows if my guy friend will ever want kids. Yes, he doesn't have kids now but that doesn't mean he won't EVER want them. I'm never changing my mind, I'm not maternal at all I never even get baby fever so me and my bf have been taking precautions so that i don't get pregannat. me and my guy friend do have a lot in common, except for the fact that i'm very outgoing and loud and he's extremely shy and soft spoken. me and my guy friend are both aspiring authors and he lives with his parents also, he is like 29 i think. me and my guy friend have been friends for 10 years and my boyfriend said that he believes he's a better match for me because of our background, how we were raised, our career aspirations, and personality. My boyfriend said our personalities can clash sometimes because me and him are both strong minded and opinionated and my bf is the type of person who is stuck in his ways. he does have a tendency to get mad over little things where my guy friend is very laid back, i've actually never seen seriously mad EVER and i've known him a long time. my boyfriend said that my guy friend is more passive which fits my personality better. also him having multiple kids by two women doesn't bother me because 1. he takes care of his kids and sees them everyday and 2. I get along with the two women, there's no anonymity. My boyfriend says he loves me but I do have to wonder if he is halfheartedly in this relationship.

About what happened to you ( a series of bad traumas occured in your childhood, one of them had to do with an omission of help you witnessed on a close relative, you were a child and wanted to witness in court but they did not do that), as he asked you why are you always sad, with no friends and why you avoid me and almost cry when I try to talk to you? I like this guy but I always go away from him almost crying because I feel like I haye my life and I h I never met him because I can never have him. He almost cried as I told him about many things, among which there was when I ended up living in a broken down house with low rent as my parents were both unemployed and the gov never helped us, but it would always help pregnant girls who had sex at 12.

One of my oldest friends who was in my wedding has now talk to me as much in the last 4 months. In fact she hasn't initiated any conversation with me. I heard from a mutual friend that she is having a bridal shower as she asked me if I was going. I never received anything in the mail and the friend figured the shower wouldn't be a surprise for her so I contacted her. She said she would ask her sister, who is managing the RSVPs, as she sent out the invitations. I haven't heard anything else from her and the shower is next weekend am I assuming I'm going?