I met this guy when I was 14 years old, across the table in the cafeteria. This past year in 2019 (i am 21 now) we finally got to reconnect after he joined the military. We started dating and everything has gone well, although we do have our off and on moments of struggle and preparing of things. We are currently at a community college together, he said I had inspired him to go to college. I am about to graduate in the spring, and going to a University. He will be graduating next spring and said he didn't plan on going to a university. I told him I was going to move to (a far town) and attend my favorite university once I graduate... Today he gave me news, that he chose to go to my same university I am moving to next fall. Meaning he will be moving in the following semester, the spring, to my university.. why would he go to my same university? Currently, we are not dating, we are repairing things, specifically our communication because it's been kind of off. He is working on getting me back. Although we've still talked and have stayed close.

I often wish I was "famous" on YouTube or my family were famous vloggers. I kind of get (slightly jealous) after watching some of my favorite family you tubers. I guess I just wish I had more confidence. anyone else ever felt this way? 

Most of time he/she is listening other's talk and they less talk. That makes you bored?

So about 5 years ago I started thinking more about my past and I started to realize that.. I don't really remember anything. (By past I mean like 98% of my childhood and I'm still young so that's worrying since tons of my friends remember things from when they were real little.) I remember very little details and most of those details have been built around stories I've been told. If I could regain those memories it would answer SO many of the questions I've been asking myself for YEARS. So if anyone knows how to regain possibly blocked or just swept under the rug memories please tell me! I know this was probably a longer question then normal for this site but seriously, the questions I have drive me crazy all the time and I just wanna know! So if you know a way to help me and took the time to read all of this thank you!!!  Much hugs! ^^

I prefer women over men and don't have a desire to be with men but if my parents force me to be with men I will cheat on them I don't like the way men look and smell but if I'm forced to date them I will break their hearts and they can blame my parents for forcing it