Please do not laugh, I am so afraid of it my anxiety is driving me crazy right now, I'm panicking. So I am not a teenager anymore and I've been together with my boyfriend for 1 year and a half, I love him so much but I am scared as hell about the physical things (which have not occured yet). He is the most perfect, kind, handsome, protective and caring guy I've ever met (but he's shy too, and I am afraid of telling him about my fears, because he'll blush and say, just like happened in the past: you shouldn't talk to me about these things, I'm a guy). My mother is the last person on earth that I eant to talk to about this. My friends are kinda vulgar when they talk about love because they told me with subliminal jokes about it and also added that their boyfriends bite them and grope their lady bits. The though of it just scares me and makes me sick. Anyway, I don't want it to be like this, I love him so much and I want it to be romantic, he is my adored prince charming, he cannot do those things to me. Please tell me if it hurts or not, or if my boyfriend will act weird or crazy in bed because of the arousal or hormones or whatever. I won't be different because I know me, but he? He is a guy, do guys change (in negative) when they make love ?