when I was 17 tell 20 I been abused physically and emotionall. By my aunt she used to hit me call me names slap me and so much more. She always said I was worthless and disrespectful person. She hated me. That ended 5 years ago. The thing is I hate myself I feel angry and I still cry over it. And blame myself for not defineding myself. I used to cry everyday but now I cry everytime I remember what she did . I'm still hurt and sad what's worse is mom seeing me getting hurt and ignoring like nothing happened. Everytime I talk to my mom about it she tells me to be quite and gets angery and change the subject and tell me to get over it and I'm being stupid. I hate myself to be honest I feel like I'm a bad person I'm Rancorous that's what's my sister said. My problem is I feel worthless and I have low self esteem and confidence. Thank you for your time and answers.

I ve always wanted to change my name and I ve come to a point in my life where changing it seems right. I don t want to be connected with my old self anymore and my name makes me feel like my old self. My name now is Hannah and I like the names acacia or kaitlynn but I d like to see what other people like. Thank You

and you both decided to try again and get back what you had, it was not a romantic or sexual relationship, how would you do that ? would that ever be possible to take things back to the start ?

When you start off, there is a present right next to the bed you come in. When you open the present, it will be a Dolly. As you go through, you will notice this doll is reoccurring. As you move into the village, you will notice that the ground is covered in red and pink roses while the trees all contain perfect peaches. As you enter the first house, you'll notice that it looks normal. You'll notice that a birthday party is going on. There are three mannequins, representing Aika and her parents. On the table is a tea set, birthday cake, and a present which presumably holds the doll we received when we entered Aika Village. The backroom is blocked by a dresser, perhaps symbolizing that Aika was not allowed into her parents' room. Going upstairs, we noticed that it looks like Aika's room. There is the doll (maybe representing Aika?) as well as some paintings. One of her mother, one of her family, and one of her dog. A happy song is playing, a toy is spinning, and overall it just looks happy. Outside of the house, we can talk to Aika and she says I love my mom. Clearly, Aika loves her mom more than her dad. Leaving the house, we continue along the path. Here is where the roses change colors, they are now lavender in color. Lavender roses, I believe, are often nice,

The people from california are easy going to your face and are passive. But if you say a out of bounds joke or a get on a christian subject (instead of them thinking through from where you come from) they go ape on you in objection and start violently yelling at you getting smart and when you try to reason they jump to conclusion and talk over you. California people are very untrusty as they present to you themselves like a really good buddy, they will do a little injustice to you without trying to let you know. Injustice such as lying or stealing. The girls from california will steal you blind and tell you that they are single while they have a freakin boyfriend! The girls from california does unhearted mean things to men and she does them in a passive agressive way.

I know this is weird but it makes me feel bad and guilty. my uncles wife wears super tight jeans and gotta say looks hot on her. Last week we were having a BBQ and I couldnt Help it but look. really try not to look but sometimes its not that easy.. whats the right thing to do?

The guy that i really like is in drugs and he yells to his parents, his parents are really nice i don't get why he yells to them. I feel bad because i like him i don't know what to do to make him stop doing all this bad stuff to his parents and his self. I need opinions please..

I really don't care what goes on in their lives but it's just a question I've been wondering about. I have a 18 year old sister in law who got pregnant on purpose to get out of her mom's house and come live with my husband's brother. Her son is 7 months old and I understand that babies can be work buy I have 2 children myself and I still find the time to do things. She drives and has a license, yet she wants me to drive her a 45 minute drive so she won't waste HER gas. I have things to do also. Its not my problem but every time my husband and I invite her and my brother in law to our family gatherings, cook outs, etc.. they say no because they have to do laundry and go buy food. My husband and brother in law received tickets for six flags and they sold them for $20 all four. In my opinion, they're just so BORING. I really don't care like I said but why are some people like that? We always go to their gatherings. And they don't have to be the type to always have fun because my relationship isn't like that. But we sure as hell don't sleep all day and starve our kids. I have my reasons and I won't go into details but I really wish that ***** would leave. My BIL just wasted his time with someone bitter. How do you do laundry all day everyday and not have time to feed one baby? Plus with a baby that can't turn or move.. how is that hard? Just saying.

For a long time, Alem thought that John is wrong, that I am simply not such a nice person, and that I'm very manipulative, evil and messed up. You did not offer me those disgusting thing for nothing Alem, you were convinced I go for that... You still agreed to help John help me. Not for me, for John. You admired his capacity for love and courage and determination... You felt bad and concerned about what you thought will be his final heart break, when he realizes he was fighting for a terrible woman, who can't love anyone... Thank you Alem, for being the best you, you could be and caring about John. We did not expect you to want to help me, we expected you to want to help John... Kyle and you didn't disappoint me, or let me down, and thank you for that.... Of course I admire the fact that both you and Kyle thought I was so messed up I loved being raped and had no serious intention to rape me, that was refreshing attitude, compared to other "real people"... They were lining up to rape me, they were not questioning anything, they did not care if I really wanted it, or if it's right or wrong to take advantage of a person so vulnerable they want it... It was open season on Eve... I will remember everything they've done to me, I've got 4 rulers of this Universe out there who know exactly what they've done to me, they will tell me. I'm not angry anymore, or looking for revenge, I'm just saying they won't be able to hide their crimes.. John, my darling loads of words come to mind, when trying to describe you, cute (as in baby or puppy or small monkeys) IS NOT one of them. More like, a sexy giant, who can kill people with his hands, and has beautiful, amazing, super sexy Indian body langue, and aw my God, I love him... More like that I see you like that...Gorgeous, stylish, sexy amazing man... I love you body language... I love your smart mind, your strong character... I love that you're a giant, and I am the small tiny monkey...but that's OK I like it.... I mean, i would love you if you weren't a giant, obviously, but it's nice to climb you, i don't mind...And I wasn't afraid for you coz you are weak, I was afraid coz you are so strong... I told you already ten weak mother fu kers are enough to kill a great, strong brave guy, coz he will not know how to back down... As much as I was afraid he might shoot you or harm your health i was afraid you might kill him, and instead of school go to jail. It was not suppose to be a jungle, where you have to defend me alone, jungle style then suffer the consequences of "civilizes society" like jail. It turned into that. it turned into oh now we are a jungle, and if John kills anyone we might go back to being civilized society again and there will be consequences... In a jungle John you would do well, proceeded that the jungle had insulin and pumps, which s not a man's fault,diabetes, it's genetics. It's also not mans glory that he got tall body, that's too genetics. But it is man's glory that he keeps it healthy, despite predisposition to be unhealthy. That he keeps it fit and strong despite excuses like serious condition that messes up your balance...etc In a jungle you would do well, you are self disciplined, brave and have got strong character. In civilizes society you would do even better, you are intelligent, kind, carting, have amazing protective instinct...Well educated... But it was a trap, they were looking to trap me and therefore trap you, trap us. They created a jungle in the way they treated me, or you, coz you stood to my defense, and it will be back to civilized society when it comes to consequences... That was suppose to be our lose lose... I am damned if i report it, damned if i don't. Cursed if I tell you, cursed if I don't... I really didn't know what to do, how to handle any of it, so as to give us a chance... There was a serious chance you might die, be seriously injured, be a title injured(still unacceptable to me), or simply end up in jail. Don't hate the mean girl, she adores you, she only exists to protect you. Just tell her that you are here to protect us, not the other way around.. Can I go home baby, I think my thyroid is ill...I will not go see a doctor. I cannot see a doctor I have to piss off Hitler and then he will five me ten euros to go see a doctor. and that cannot cover bus fair. I will not sit in fear of not being able to pay for my tests, hitchhike home, have nutters ask me to kiss me or any of the lovely things I went through last time my dad gave me moeny to go see a doctor... BTW mean girl would never show up for duty if they didn't create this jungle...She was my last resort to save you from me if things become hopeless... I was not going to take you down with me... You just are stronger, and more beautiful, and more loving and more stubborn than I ever expected and I am so greatful for that and I LOVE YOU FOREVER... I am a very lucky tiny monkey...

Antes eramos bien amigos y nos empezamos a gustar, luego llegó otra chica y a él le gustó, me fue claro y decidí olvidarlo. Nos hicimos más amigos, me contaba cosas de ellos, que cuando estaba con ella, él se sentía bien enamorado, pero cuando se iba, se desmotivaba y no le quería hablarle. Dejó de gustarle y tuvieron problemas, se dejaron. Duraron bien poco. Volvió a sentir algo por mí, y yo me entregué a él. Me gusta mucho este chico y yo a él. El problema es que somos iguales en sentido de HP con los demas, no nos enamoramos de nadie. Entonces él me tiene miedo, cree que le voy a hacer daño. Le he demostrado mucho cuanto lo quiero. Ayer estuvimos juntos y me empezó a decir lo que siente. Cuando esta conmigo, se siente bien feliz, enamorado, es perfecto, pero cuando se va, le da mucho miedo, y se desmotiva tambien. Cómo hago para quitarle ese miedo? Y como hago para que cuando no esté conmigo no se desmotive y me piense mucho???

Just hear me out, but I'm 18 years old, but I will be traveling with my younger brother next month for Christmas and New Years, this is pretty much the first time without traveling with my mom, she is going to be home with my youngest brother and stepdad, I feel bad for her because me and my brother won't be with her for the important holiday season this year , we will be with family in New York, it's an experience that we will all learn at one point . So please don't tell me that I need to grow up and be an adult. Cause I know I do. Please some advice.

I caught my dad with another women at the movie theatre last night when i went with my friends and i saw them holding hands and kissing, i took video of it with my phone and took pictures too my friends told me not to confront my dad about it but idk what is going on and idk what to do at all. I want to tell my mom so bad but she is so fragile she recently lost her pregnancy a month ago, the baby that was supposed to be my brother had a spontaneous obortion and my mom has been so sad and fraglile and i dont think telling her about what i saw will be a good idea it may push her to edge of hurting herself because she blames the miscariage on herself and she cries every day about it. idk what to do like idk?????

when I first saw my dad after a few weeks of being apart He put his hand on my thigh, up my sleeve, kissing my cheek a lot.I tried to Brush it off, telling myself that he just missed He continued to visit me on Saturdays. he continued to put his hand on my thigh,putting his arm around my shoulder and rubbing my stomach with the same hand. Putting his arm up my sleeve. Asking about a pimple that was barely showing above my shirt on my chest. I finally told my Mom and she talked to him about it. 2 weeks after that when I tried to sit on the other side of the couch he pulled me over to be right right right next to him when we were the only ones at home. I got up because I needed to get away and he kinda swiped my butt. Another time he was giving me a hug and his hand touched my butt although I m not sure if it was intentional or not. Then When I was sitting at the counter doing homework, he put his hands on my shoulders, and I shrugged them off, and he got upset like "I don t know why that bothers you!" I lied and told him I just didn t like any contact from anyone. And then there was something on tv about snuggling and he was like "you could come over here and we can snuggle" and I said no and then he got really pissy. Saying like "I don t know why you won t let me touch you. I feels like you hate me! You re the only family I have up here!" And a bunch of other crap like that. I told him again That I didn t like contact and said sorry and he stayed mad for a little bit.

The first time he fell asleep &' I was cleaning his phone was going off so I checked it &' I saw his messages with a couple girls, one of them his ex. He was planning on hanging out &' if the mood was right have some s__ I comforted him about it &' forgave him. Btw I was pregnant already. Now I was in labor for 19 hours, did no epidural, he was being a jerk &' was half of the time out of the room while I was going through contractions. I ended up having to have a C-section. The day before my relase I got up because our baby was crying &' I just got his phone, as soon as I open it I see the messages again. Because I planed of coming to my moms house to recover for the sake of my child (him &' his mom smoke inside the house &' this is the reason why I did not go home with him) he was making plans with her to hang out when she was asked what it was they where doing he said "Netflix &' chill" with one of those sexual Netflix &' chill pictures that go around the Internet. I confronted him again &' he said that same thing as last time. He text her cause he was hurt, he never meant it, he was just joking around. I've been cheated on so many times &' I still believe people can change so I forgave him.

So I've always wondered this for so long. Ever since I can remember, since like kindergarten, I've always been very shy. And as the years have gone on Ive gotten less and less shy. But there is still situations to this day where I would describe myself as shy or awkward. I'm 17 now, then there's other times when I am sociable and there's no problems. I've asked my mom but she just says no. Is there something wrong with me?

My coach high fives me then holds on to my hand? After most of my races my coach will high five me, but then instead of just high fiving he holds my hand and pulls it close to his chest and holds it there for a few seconds before letting go. I ve never seen him do it to the other girls, does this mean anything?

I'm currently enrolled in a community college in Boston. My dad is the only person I have in my life and he gambled our house away. We have no money and we are going to be homeless very soon. My question is, I've looked online at shelters but it's so confusing and a lot of the places I've called refer me to other shelters and it's a never ending game. I work part time at a 7/11 and I'm in school full time. I have no other relatives in my life and no friends whatsoever who can take me in. And my dad is doing nothing to help himself. I have no car, no money saved, and I am going to be on the streets. I also signed up recently for DMH but that will take a while to get accepted. Any tips on how to survive Boston?

I am trying to contact a guy who I had been communicating via e-mail in 2013. We were dong a tape trade. I shipped my half. He didn't send his. He suddenly stopped talking to me. I love in Bonita Springs, fl. He lives in St. Petersburg, fl which is 2 1/2 hours away. Now, I tried using people search websites and they gave me inaccurate info as far as e-mail address and phone numbers. Here is the tricky part. I contacted his daughter and she said that her dad no longer has a computer. I gave her daughter my cell phone number (protected by Google voice so no one can steal my personal info) to give to her dad to no avail. What should I do? Any suggestions? I did try getting phone books for the Tampa region but they didn't list his name.

She's female and I'm male, if that makes a difference

I heard guys like having their space and he always messages me, like every day most of the time he starts, I love it dont get me wrong, and when I need to be alone (depressed) I like being alone but he always messages me to see if I'm okay, as sweet it may seem, I just don't get why he hasn't told his parents about me and we been together for over a year now. What does that mean?

I got bubbles but I'm thinking about getting something else. Any ideas for something cheap?

First off i'm going to explain with intials instead of actuals names if that's alright with your and the females(if they are maried the 3rd inital would be their maiden name if they were married more than one then the 4th would be their first married name and then the 5th would be the last one. but or depends on the child or something.the 4th or 5th would be the married names the 3rd would always be the married name. And my uncle(my mom's brother-in-law died in 1998) and my uncle's parents have suspected that one of his supposed children really wasn't his and i'm inclined somewhat to believe them considering certain things, I've always had a sneaky suspicion that my girl cousin's boyfriend is really her half-brother but i can't seem to voice my opinion without looking like a complete goofball. what i mean is that they were both born in 1992 my girl cousin lets call her (M.M.L.)(not married yet) was born on Jan. 1992 and her boyfriend (H.D.)(not totally sure what his middle initial is) was born in Oct. 1992; and since if a person is born in Jan 1992 then that person was conceived in Mar of 1991 and if a person is born in Oct. 1992 then that person was conceived in Dec. 1991. and I've got a sneaky suspicion that my uncle(call him G.S.L) and aunt(T.L.C.-L.-S.) divorced and remarried back to each other without the in-laws finding out. but while they were supposedly divorced I'm willing to bet my aunt(T.L.C.-L.-S) had sex with H.D's father, but continuing in other updates. but after that my uncle(G.S.L) got back together with my aunt(T.L.C-L-S.) and had sex as well, and then my aunt got pregnant and she wasn't sure but pretended that her daughter to be(M.M.L) was G.S.L's child but she wasn't totally sure and probably still not sure it's just my gut instinct i'm following please let me explain further. because the sex H.D's father had with my aunt was supposedly in Mar. 1991 and same thing with my uncle so the fact or possible suspicion was hidden and is still hidden from some folk but i can see through people and suspect they've got some type of hidden secrets. and Remember the kids home video Barney and the Backyard Gang: Barney In Concert, during the knickerbocker song, i could swore I've seen my older cousin K.K.L.-S.(M.M.L's older sister or half-sister) if my suspicion is correct in the audience with her father(my uncle G.S.L.) and the Barney and The Backyard Gang:Barney in Concert happened in March of 1991 so you see where I'm going with this i'm hoping. and that concert was in texas while my aunt was still in Georgia. and if my suspicion is correct then H.D's father found his mother and had H.D. in Oct of 1992 which means H.D's father had sex with his mother in DEC. 1991 so that would mean this: that K.K.L.-S. and M.M.L are half-sisters(same mother but different fathers) and that H.D and M.M.L. are half- brother and half-sister(same father but different mothers.And why do i have this suspicion you really don't want to know considering it might come off wrong that's all i'm saying.

what would you if a guy in College would start talking to you and then he would ask you if you consider him handsome? and then if you said yes, what would you do if he kissed you, longggg kiss?

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I live with my bf and my mom has been calling more lately and it's over things that she could text about. Well that really irritates me especially if im having a bad day and i hit ignore most ppl would text she just blows up my phone. And i dont wanna ******* talk. But i dont say that because it sounds mean but i get tired of considering her feelings because when im in a really bad mood i can only contain myself for so long. I try not to blow up on her but i feel like she's pushing me everytime it gets a little further. I wish she would quit it but i can't tell her anything without her getting upset which i love my mom but i think that's ridiculous because no matter how nice i tried to be about whatever was bothering me she got too upset about it. So it's like no matter what i say or how i say it she's gonna be upset and i love my family but im a loner not used to being with my family and except for my bf because one that's just me and two me and her are opposites and she doesn't understand me or how i work at all. I just wish she would understand when i don't answer it means i don't wanna talk. Not just to her. To anyone. I don't crowd her when she wants space. I have really bad anxiety and sometimes she makes it worse. What can i do to fix this?

It's between 'I've thought about how easily I could force you down and have my way with you'' (when I wasn't ready for sex) or ''I want a woman who does what she's told, no questions asked'' <---both from the same winner, lol.

Read all of this!!! Ok so June of 2015, I started talking to a man that s married who was not being satisfied by his wife of 6 years at home basically they have kids so they haven t had sex in a while. Anyway, when him and I started talking, I was married and living with my abusive soon to be ex husband and three year old daughter. So in July of 2015, after my husband choked me for the last time after months of verbal mental emotional and physical abuse I had him arrested and went to my parents with my daughter. We were flirting and talking very sexual and have had phone sex at least 6 times and sexted multiple times. We haven t been physical yet but we have kissed and planned to get a hotel room this coming December to finally have sex. last Tuesday we had phone sex like we always do and he asked if we re really going to have sex in December I said yes. So anyway yesterday November 24th. I get a text from him saying " we Need to sever what we got going on for a while I need to focus on my family for a bit I hope you understand" I said no problem I totally understand he said don t worry we ll talk again I know it! I told him just be honest with me that s all I ask. He said I always will you too!! Ok so is he ending things completely with me or just taking a break and when we talk again we ll pick up where we left off. Please do not make nasty comments or judge me I haven t had sex physically with this man. Advice needed!!

I lived in Spokane WA for 1 1/2 years about 4 years ago for college and absolutely loved it, but came back to my home town in Salem OR. I have 2 kids, 15, and 13 and they both loved it their as well. Found an awesome home and want to move. Its in the mead school district which is where my kids went last time we lived their, I'm a linesman and my wife an RN. Anybody have any advice about if I should move or not?