Everywhere I go i meet women, and their guy friends always bounces their hands across their chest, or up and down their chest and rock back and fourth and insult me and mock me. They call me gay. These guys would look at me and bounce their hands across their chest. They would get close behind me and make noises in my ear and would yell in my head or would hound insults in the back of my head following me. They would always bounce their hands across their chest when they would see me. These women would always hang with these guys. Why does these guys do this?

I can't tell if I hate myself or love myself. I go from crying because I'm overweight to admiring my face and embracing the fact that I'm a bit chubby. I don't know if I like someone. When someone admits they like me, I can't help but like them back, and that makes me seem whore-ish because I go from guy to guy. Also, I'm always told that I won't end up with my boyfriends, and I know that's true. So am I just supposed to not date the people I'm interested in? But here's the BIG problem; I'm a teenager and everyone has their troubles during their troubles during these times. I've grown up without a dad, and wouldn't say without a father figure because I have an older sister, who's 10 years older than me. All my mom does is sleep (literally for weeks at a time) My sister works 3 jobs and goes to college, so she's rarely home, and when she is, she's spending time with her boyfriend. I eat frozen or canned food every night. I lay in my bed all day on my phone. It's not like I can go outside (because of my mom) I'm overweight and right now I hate myself for it. When the doctors tell my mom something about it, she just gets all mad and says their bad doctors for telling her how to raise her child. I get embaressed at PE, so I just walk while everyone's doing the actual excersises (I'm failing that class) I do a bunch of different excersies in my room, but that's not enough. I can't talk about it, because in my mom and sisters eyes, I'm healthy. But I'm not. I just need advice.

So she's been trying to do the whole youtube thing but the videos she posts are so stupid. They're just about the things she's doing throughout the day. They might get anywhere from 10 to 50 views. She asked me why she can't get any views and I'm like because you have yet to to put up anything interesting. But I just stay quiet because I don't want to be harsh. And she's starting to look like a clown. She wears literally all of the makeup. And not just normal but bizarre makeup. She looks like a cross between marilyn manson and Jeffree star. That's okay if you live in LA but no one will take you seriously like that in the middle of Iowa. So I put up a video of a guitar cover like 3 days ago and I have a couple thousand views. And she's pissed. Like what? Why is she pissed? I have put years and years into learning guitar. I play every day at least a couple of hours. It is my life. She doesn't understand that people don't give a **** about your day to day routine unless you are already somebody. How do I explain this to her?